I`m a big big girl, in a big big world, it`s all a big big ...
Rainee days, i will always sing tis song, Not considered as sing thou, juz naturally muttering while looking out de windows..
Life runs, time flies..im goin 2 welcome my 20th years soon..oh my my..juz never imagine how fast it was after our graduation, no, should i say, after my form 5..
Sometimes, when u look up upon de sky, would u think bout there`s sum1 else oso looking on de same sky at tis moment? i will. sumtimes..especially when it`s raining. I love rainy days, especially those days wit heavy rain and scary lighting. It makes me feel like i`m refreshed. With de pouring rain, sumhow feels like everythg is being washed. It gives me de energy to revive.
Unfortunately, there is not muc heavy rain in japan. Japan`s rain is different from malay`s. It`s so tiny til u wont feel like it`s raining. It`s like a thin silk lightly covering on ur face, without any annoyed feeling, it`s just so soft n so comfortable. I love tis too. Listening to de softly lightly rain drops of de tiny little rain and de ochestra from de splashing by vechicles and de flow of de water in drain makes me feel so comfortable, so relax, and guiding me 2 deep thoughts. However, perhaps not deep thoughts i think. It is more likely 2 be dreaming, thinking nothg, juz let de tired body n exhausted brain resulted from de daily systematic lifes return to its nature. And oso, i wil desperately missing de old days n de old frens n unlimitedly repeat n repeat imagining de times v have spent 2gthr. Every1. every1 tat have been in my life. every1 tat i had almost forgotten. every1 tat was so near n so far. Every1 tat i appreciate.
Freinds, if u r reading tis, whether v r closed or not, juz wan2 let u noe, thanks for being in my life.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
lOnEly~~i aM So lOnELLYYYYYYYYYYYYY~~~~~~
Move 2 new place, living alone..haiz... >x<
Firstly, nid 2 say sorry 4 those who keep waiting 4 me 2 on9...Since i moved 2 new place, i nid 2 apply 4 new internet n it took me about 2~3 weeks 2 get de modem. Luckily, i finally can on9 since tis week.[ almost bored 2 death b4 tis.. >x<]
Although started my new uni life [ i noe sum1 who haven.. >w< wakiakiakiakia], stil feeling so bored..But i did make quite a numbers of new frens, although none of them is from malaysia. I believe i am de only 1 in tis uni !! [ no kidding..it`s a real big uni..there were at least 8 thousand of new student attended in de skul opening ceremony!!] the 1st day i went 2 skul was de foreign student guidance which hold b4 de opening ceremony.According 2 de speechers, tis year it reach about 120 of foreign student in our faculty [ i 4got wad he said, or perhaps 4 whole skul]. But wad i can saw were juz CHINESE n KOREAN, except 1 from south american. OMG~~
n 1 thg tat makes me feel zadao is------ there r really sum1 who dunnoe where is MALAYSIA!!!! [even de proffesor... ==" ] OMG~~~ every1 thought i m one of de CHINESE, but when i say im from malaysia, every1 would gave a same reaction: OMG!! can MALAYSIAN speaks CHINESE ??!! I thought every1 is speaking MALAYS!!! ] deng...
However, i stil being proud 2 b a MALAYSIAN. coz v can speak MULTI-LANGUAGE!! when i told dem i can speak 6 languages, their reaction oso de same: SUGOII~~~~ n de most impressive language 4 dem is ENGLISH... [ thou i started 2 feel xia sui bcoz of my sucks english..]
V took TOIEC exam on de opening day. n v wil choose our english clas according 2 de result. i got 880/ 9~~ n bcoz of tis stupid system tat every1 muz take de english clas, i hav finded teacher almost 5 times everyday 2 solve my schedule problem.. [ until de proffesor oso recognise me..=="] yesterday finally started our english clas, n those japanese dam geng la..[ al lived in NY, LONDON,GERMAN b4..] TxT now really feel like xia sui-ing malaysia.. >x< got a bit bit regret y din learnt my english wel.. sorry~~tarenjit..mrs. tam.. n etc..
My hs not big n not smal, but a bit sempit. n de most hated place is its kitchen.. u never saw such a weird kitchen b4..usually our sink n stove wil b alligned as left n right, but now my sink is in front of my stove, tat means everytime when u wan2 cook u nid 2 panjangkan ur hand 2 reach de stove.. really fnc, making me wan2 curse de designer.. n in front of my mansion got a building blocking al de sunshine..making feel gloomy n gloomy day by day..sucks...
but 1 thg tat i like most is i only nid 2 walk 5min 2 reach my uni, thou de supermarket here dam expensive n i nid 2 go 2 de other station 2 buy my grocery.. ==" bringing bak a lot of stuff like an aunty.. >x< n recently wan2 jimat jimat...kenot go out oso.. TxT wan2 fat mou lo...every1 who read tis..pls contact me b4 i grew mushroom ...
Aiyaaiyaaiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!DAM BORED.....
Firstly, nid 2 say sorry 4 those who keep waiting 4 me 2 on9...Since i moved 2 new place, i nid 2 apply 4 new internet n it took me about 2~3 weeks 2 get de modem. Luckily, i finally can on9 since tis week.[ almost bored 2 death b4 tis.. >x<]
Although started my new uni life [ i noe sum1 who haven.. >w< wakiakiakiakia], stil feeling so bored..But i did make quite a numbers of new frens, although none of them is from malaysia. I believe i am de only 1 in tis uni !! [ no kidding..it`s a real big uni..there were at least 8 thousand of new student attended in de skul opening ceremony!!] the 1st day i went 2 skul was de foreign student guidance which hold b4 de opening ceremony.According 2 de speechers, tis year it reach about 120 of foreign student in our faculty [ i 4got wad he said, or perhaps 4 whole skul]. But wad i can saw were juz CHINESE n KOREAN, except 1 from south american. OMG~~
n 1 thg tat makes me feel zadao is------ there r really sum1 who dunnoe where is MALAYSIA!!!! [even de proffesor... ==" ] OMG~~~ every1 thought i m one of de CHINESE, but when i say im from malaysia, every1 would gave a same reaction: OMG!! can MALAYSIAN speaks CHINESE ??!! I thought every1 is speaking MALAYS!!! ] deng...
However, i stil being proud 2 b a MALAYSIAN. coz v can speak MULTI-LANGUAGE!! when i told dem i can speak 6 languages, their reaction oso de same: SUGOII~~~~ n de most impressive language 4 dem is ENGLISH... [ thou i started 2 feel xia sui bcoz of my sucks english..]
V took TOIEC exam on de opening day. n v wil choose our english clas according 2 de result. i got 880/ 9~~ n bcoz of tis stupid system tat every1 muz take de english clas, i hav finded teacher almost 5 times everyday 2 solve my schedule problem.. [ until de proffesor oso recognise me..=="] yesterday finally started our english clas, n those japanese dam geng la..[ al lived in NY, LONDON,GERMAN b4..] TxT now really feel like xia sui-ing malaysia.. >x< got a bit bit regret y din learnt my english wel.. sorry~~tarenjit..mrs. tam.. n etc..
My hs not big n not smal, but a bit sempit. n de most hated place is its kitchen.. u never saw such a weird kitchen b4..usually our sink n stove wil b alligned as left n right, but now my sink is in front of my stove, tat means everytime when u wan2 cook u nid 2 panjangkan ur hand 2 reach de stove.. really fnc, making me wan2 curse de designer.. n in front of my mansion got a building blocking al de sunshine..making feel gloomy n gloomy day by day..sucks...
but 1 thg tat i like most is i only nid 2 walk 5min 2 reach my uni, thou de supermarket here dam expensive n i nid 2 go 2 de other station 2 buy my grocery.. ==" bringing bak a lot of stuff like an aunty.. >x< n recently wan2 jimat jimat...kenot go out oso.. TxT wan2 fat mou lo...every1 who read tis..pls contact me b4 i grew mushroom ...
Aiyaaiyaaiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!DAM BORED.....
Friday, January 30, 2009
WAIT...
U noe....it`s dam pharking annoyed when u`re being asked by de same question again n again n again n again. recently, oh no, sorry...i suppose 2 say, dam long ago when i started 2 apply 4 de uni, i hav been asked by de same question : what wil u do after u graduated? Oh my fucking mama mia dam question!!!! how would i noe bout de future??!!!
Well, actually , honestly, mayb 8 of 10 ppl wil noe how 2 answer tis question, n tis is not de question`s own fault. i knew it!! but sumhow i juz cun imagine wad wil i bcum n even i cun tink bout entering de uni!!!! Ican say, im totally lost here....i dun noe y i have choosed here, n i dun mind y i choosed here, n now im juz only care tat IM HERE!
Mayb , no, probably every1 oso wil say tat wad a dam fool decision u hav made!!! but i dun care how bout others feel, coz dey r not me. I do admit tat my decision is sumhow made in 2 fast n rush, but SO WAD??! rn`t every1 oso hav de time when u juz feel : Let`s do it. Juz do it. Juz go on. sumhow there was a voice deep in my heart hav told me, GO ON. n TAT`S de only reason y i hav came here. 4 me, It sounds so uncool, but tat`s ENOUGH.
Wel. now tat i hav came here, n hav been studied 4 bout 1 year, i juz hav a thought, KEEP GOIN ON. Since it was my own choice, i wil not regret, i muz not regret, n i wil make it not regret.
U cun imagined how many lies hav i told 2 b accepted in2 those DRAMATIC uni. Every single interview i did, i nid 2 lie more lies 2 survive. How cum tis world so FAKE??!!! certainly, not only me, every1 seems 2 b nid 2 lie , at least, not muc like me.
I hate tis. Now tat im applyin 4 a scholarship, n once more, de same question appeared. I can accept it if it was juz a few sentence tat i juz nid 2 simply copy wad i have said b4, but it turn out 2 b at least 800 words above!!! Gosh!!! How can i stil make lies??
Im like an author now, repeat n repeat n repeat doin de same thg, lie--or u can say it in other more common way, blew water. It was always my best in doin tis, when chit-chat wit old pals, but not in my own future! Thou, i stil wrote it. But sumhow i juz cun accept. even im de teacher or de judge, i obviously, certainly , n absolutely wont take a look on tat rubbish tat i hav wrote!
Im so dam tired. I juz nid 2 spew out everythg tat i wan2 say tat hav been sealed 4 dam long period. I stil remember. Juz b4 i depart, n after i reached here, sum1 told me: dun do sumthg u wil regret. n dun 4get de purpose u choosed tis road.
His words juz repeat everytime when im confusing, frustating, n starting 2 b mad. THANKS 2 him. his words support me over n over again. I really appretiated him..
But oso, SORRY, i nid 2 say i guess. Sorry 4 not being tough enough, not being strong enough, not being honest enough.
Guess i can only wait 4 de time where i can determine n make up my mind.
Well, actually , honestly, mayb 8 of 10 ppl wil noe how 2 answer tis question, n tis is not de question`s own fault. i knew it!! but sumhow i juz cun imagine wad wil i bcum n even i cun tink bout entering de uni!!!! Ican say, im totally lost here....i dun noe y i have choosed here, n i dun mind y i choosed here, n now im juz only care tat IM HERE!
Mayb , no, probably every1 oso wil say tat wad a dam fool decision u hav made!!! but i dun care how bout others feel, coz dey r not me. I do admit tat my decision is sumhow made in 2 fast n rush, but SO WAD??! rn`t every1 oso hav de time when u juz feel : Let`s do it. Juz do it. Juz go on. sumhow there was a voice deep in my heart hav told me, GO ON. n TAT`S de only reason y i hav came here. 4 me, It sounds so uncool, but tat`s ENOUGH.
Wel. now tat i hav came here, n hav been studied 4 bout 1 year, i juz hav a thought, KEEP GOIN ON. Since it was my own choice, i wil not regret, i muz not regret, n i wil make it not regret.
U cun imagined how many lies hav i told 2 b accepted in2 those DRAMATIC uni. Every single interview i did, i nid 2 lie more lies 2 survive. How cum tis world so FAKE??!!! certainly, not only me, every1 seems 2 b nid 2 lie , at least, not muc like me.
I hate tis. Now tat im applyin 4 a scholarship, n once more, de same question appeared. I can accept it if it was juz a few sentence tat i juz nid 2 simply copy wad i have said b4, but it turn out 2 b at least 800 words above!!! Gosh!!! How can i stil make lies??
Im like an author now, repeat n repeat n repeat doin de same thg, lie--or u can say it in other more common way, blew water. It was always my best in doin tis, when chit-chat wit old pals, but not in my own future! Thou, i stil wrote it. But sumhow i juz cun accept. even im de teacher or de judge, i obviously, certainly , n absolutely wont take a look on tat rubbish tat i hav wrote!
Im so dam tired. I juz nid 2 spew out everythg tat i wan2 say tat hav been sealed 4 dam long period. I stil remember. Juz b4 i depart, n after i reached here, sum1 told me: dun do sumthg u wil regret. n dun 4get de purpose u choosed tis road.
His words juz repeat everytime when im confusing, frustating, n starting 2 b mad. THANKS 2 him. his words support me over n over again. I really appretiated him..
But oso, SORRY, i nid 2 say i guess. Sorry 4 not being tough enough, not being strong enough, not being honest enough.
Guess i can only wait 4 de time where i can determine n make up my mind.
Friday, January 23, 2009
PASS....>w<
23JAN2009...
I failed 1 uni that i didn`t tink i would fail, n i pass a greater uni [ sumhow it turns out 2 b a kinda famous skul among de japanese...] that i merely hav a hope in it...wel...it`s certainly sumthg tat should b congratulated..at least there is a uni tat wil 2 accept me..LUCKILY...
BUT on de other hand....i failed tokyo uni eventhou i stil haven`t take de exam.. HOW DARE they PHAILED me in de [1st] test!!!!!!! --even dey claimed it as a test..thou it`s just a reference 2 judge whether u r qualified 2 take their next exam of interview anot base on de document u sent 2 dem ...
PHARRRRRKINGGGGGGGGG n c...I have paid so muc 4 tat!!!! n now im told tat im not qualified 2 TAKE DE TEST!!!! i have failed b4 i can ty.....suc a pity 4 dem 2 lose suc a billiant like me...DAM...
Anyway, really thanks 4 ur guys` help... espeacially a fatt n yumin... T.T
I failed 1 uni that i didn`t tink i would fail, n i pass a greater uni [ sumhow it turns out 2 b a kinda famous skul among de japanese...] that i merely hav a hope in it...wel...it`s certainly sumthg tat should b congratulated..at least there is a uni tat wil 2 accept me..LUCKILY...
BUT on de other hand....i failed tokyo uni eventhou i stil haven`t take de exam.. HOW DARE they PHAILED me in de [1st] test!!!!!!! --even dey claimed it as a test..thou it`s just a reference 2 judge whether u r qualified 2 take their next exam of interview anot base on de document u sent 2 dem ...
PHARRRRRKINGGGGGGGGG n c...I have paid so muc 4 tat!!!! n now im told tat im not qualified 2 TAKE DE TEST!!!! i have failed b4 i can ty.....suc a pity 4 dem 2 lose suc a billiant like me...DAM...
Anyway, really thanks 4 ur guys` help... espeacially a fatt n yumin... T.T
Saturday, January 10, 2009
我肥来了~~~
2008年12月15日，我肥到我可爱的马来西亚了。。时间来去匆匆，整整3个礼拜的假期就这样陪着一班SIKELING过去了。。。除了吃喝玩乐，就只学到了FUCKING NAABU CIBAI。。。
2009年1月6日，再不想回去还是要回去。。KLIA里，发生了小小的意外。LUGGAGE原本的限度是20KG，结果竟然有30.2KG！！[里面全部都是食物。。。]还好那个马来小哥也很识DO，28KG也让我过了。。。然后还有一个超级白痴。。。等我进了GATE过后才到机场。。。猜猜看是谁？？FNC。。
回到宿舍已经是凌晨12.30。。。累到HAM酱。。。。接下来的几天就是为了大学的面试而一直练习。。昨天去考了，虽然准备的答案都派不上用场，但整体来讲应该可以过关瓜。。。3个老师从头笑到尾。。。。不懂他们笑什么。。。
ANYWAY。。。下两个星期还有考试，暂时就是酱咯。。。
PS：他妈的超级冷。。。平均只有5度。。前天还讲可能下雪。。虽然没有下到。。昨天SIBEH大风。。。不要将振宁跟尤敏，顺健都会被吹走。。。
2009年1月6日，再不想回去还是要回去。。KLIA里，发生了小小的意外。LUGGAGE原本的限度是20KG，结果竟然有30.2KG！！[里面全部都是食物。。。]还好那个马来小哥也很识DO，28KG也让我过了。。。然后还有一个超级白痴。。。等我进了GATE过后才到机场。。。猜猜看是谁？？FNC。。
回到宿舍已经是凌晨12.30。。。累到HAM酱。。。。接下来的几天就是为了大学的面试而一直练习。。昨天去考了，虽然准备的答案都派不上用场，但整体来讲应该可以过关瓜。。。3个老师从头笑到尾。。。。不懂他们笑什么。。。
ANYWAY。。。下两个星期还有考试，暂时就是酱咯。。。
PS：他妈的超级冷。。。平均只有5度。。前天还讲可能下雪。。虽然没有下到。。昨天SIBEH大风。。。不要将振宁跟尤敏，顺健都会被吹走。。。
Saturday, September 6, 2008
横滨～～
2008年8月10日。。。
横滨我来了～～！！！
并不是很漂亮的海边，可是全都是穿BIKINI的辣妹。。。先不管是否真的养眼，还真的是都穿着BIKINI，化着妆下水的年轻辣妹呢。。 ＞ｗ＜ [虽然也有身材不怎样的阿姨们穿的非常辣啦。。。]反看我们这一群马来西亚来的，别说每一个人穿泳衣了，就连像样点的衣服也没穿，就好像从山芭跑出来的SAKAI酱跳进海了。。[大概都吓到日本人了吧。。。 ＝＝” ]
有点像PD的海边，由于是最靠近东京的海，所以就算是在工业区，也无所谓了。。[去别的地方交通费很高。。]结果，从早上一直玩到接近5点，全部人都SUNBURN了。。尤其是男生，都脱了衣服在大太阳[现在是日本杀死人的夏天喔。。]下打球，全部回来后都不知道当了多少天的印第安人[从头红到脚也。。女生也是，尤其是我，妈的。。。真的变成小黑人了。。＞ｘ＜
虽然那天真的晒死人，海边也不美，帅哥也没见到，还被莫名生物咬到半生死，但还是因为人多玩得很癫，还算不错啦。。[被他们丢进海里好多次。。 Ｔ．Ｔ]
现在我的脚还有当时被水母毒到的伤痕！！！已经1个月了。。。妈的，真的中毒了，不仅一颗颗小小颗地肿起来，还会痒。。ＴｘＴ
PS--由于真的没什么漂亮的，所以没有拍到照，PAISEH啦，准备看辣妹的家伙们。。。Ｘｐ
横滨我来了～～！！！
并不是很漂亮的海边，可是全都是穿BIKINI的辣妹。。。先不管是否真的养眼，还真的是都穿着BIKINI，化着妆下水的年轻辣妹呢。。 ＞ｗ＜ [虽然也有身材不怎样的阿姨们穿的非常辣啦。。。]反看我们这一群马来西亚来的，别说每一个人穿泳衣了，就连像样点的衣服也没穿，就好像从山芭跑出来的SAKAI酱跳进海了。。[大概都吓到日本人了吧。。。 ＝＝” ]
有点像PD的海边，由于是最靠近东京的海，所以就算是在工业区，也无所谓了。。[去别的地方交通费很高。。]结果，从早上一直玩到接近5点，全部人都SUNBURN了。。尤其是男生，都脱了衣服在大太阳[现在是日本杀死人的夏天喔。。]下打球，全部回来后都不知道当了多少天的印第安人[从头红到脚也。。女生也是，尤其是我，妈的。。。真的变成小黑人了。。＞ｘ＜
虽然那天真的晒死人，海边也不美，帅哥也没见到，还被莫名生物咬到半生死，但还是因为人多玩得很癫，还算不错啦。。[被他们丢进海里好多次。。 Ｔ．Ｔ]
现在我的脚还有当时被水母毒到的伤痕！！！已经1个月了。。。妈的，真的中毒了，不仅一颗颗小小颗地肿起来，还会痒。。ＴｘＴ
PS--由于真的没什么漂亮的，所以没有拍到照，PAISEH啦，准备看辣妹的家伙们。。。Ｘｐ
Saturday, August 30, 2008
天啊～～～！
2008年7月17日。。。
林间学校回来，立刻就举行了校内统一考。今天是演讲，每位都必须从[我在外国的日子]与[关于学习日文]这两篇论题中二选一。
视听室。。。
班上都弥漫着紧张的气氛，一位一位上台，终于轮到我其中一位好朋友上台了[一样是由马来西亚来的]。他让我看过原稿，而他也说得非常好。就在大家给他鼓掌时，忽然，“[日文]抱歉，能给我点时间吗？接下来我想说的将于这次的考试完全无关”。
瞬间静下来。他开始说[有一位朋友，很开朗，很奇怪，不知不觉就好起来了。。。。。最后。。。。彼女の事が好きです。。]全班轰动起来，大声喧哗，叫着我的名。。
逼不得已之下，我只好抬起头来。站在我前面的是，拿着一束玫瑰的他。。。
？？？？？！！！！！！！！！！
PS：我对过后还能非常异常地冷静地演讲完的自己感到无比的钦佩。。。 ＞ｗ＜
林间学校回来，立刻就举行了校内统一考。今天是演讲，每位都必须从[我在外国的日子]与[关于学习日文]这两篇论题中二选一。
视听室。。。
班上都弥漫着紧张的气氛，一位一位上台，终于轮到我其中一位好朋友上台了[一样是由马来西亚来的]。他让我看过原稿，而他也说得非常好。就在大家给他鼓掌时，忽然，“[日文]抱歉，能给我点时间吗？接下来我想说的将于这次的考试完全无关”。
瞬间静下来。他开始说[有一位朋友，很开朗，很奇怪，不知不觉就好起来了。。。。。最后。。。。彼女の事が好きです。。]全班轰动起来，大声喧哗，叫着我的名。。
逼不得已之下，我只好抬起头来。站在我前面的是，拿着一束玫瑰的他。。。
？？？？？！！！！！！！！！！
PS：我对过后还能非常异常地冷静地演讲完的自己感到无比的钦佩。。。 ＞ｗ＜
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